christmas, is so boring these few years.
no more the times where i'll run around my aunt's house,
playing with my cousin and brothers.
no more happily bringing home lotsa presents during christmas eve,
with my parents telling me not to open them til tmr,
but i still did.
no more of tt after i was 13, after my grandmomma passed away.
cause my grandmomma's bday was on the 25th of Dec, Christmas Day.
so the family will go to my Gu Ma's house to celebrate the 2 occasions.
yep, i went back again to my gu ma's house on the 24th for christmas.
i was expecting a lot of people, like before, cos on my poppa's side he had 9 siblings.
Really lots of people, i have a cousin from my 5th uncle who is one yr older than me,
and nieces and nephews from the other grown up cousins.
there were easily thirty people or so?
however, this year, there were only 7 people, excluding my family.
no more christmas tree, no more lotsa christmas presents.
and my gu jeong is really sick.
couldnt get outta bed.
diabetes is really scary.
talked to him for a bit.
had a bit of dinner,
then gu ma took out a video tape.
it was taken in 1993, 13 years ago.
i was 4years old, my brothers 6 and 8, cousin 5.
then i saw me, playing with a toy tt looks kinda like a gun.
boy, was i cute then, though i said it myself.
no more those times.
shit.
everyone cherish your relatives while u can yea.
sucky christmas, sucky birthday too.
hope next year will be better.
nights all.
